Well...I've gone & done it. My family has jumped on the Dave Ramsey love fest. We are working on the Total $ Makeover. Woot.
So excited.
Can't wait...........to FAIL!
We have pinged ponged back & forth on debt reduction crap for most of our married life. For the most part we have done well. We have done well because my husband knows how to cook the books...wait...that didn't come out right. We have done well because I take after my mother. My father use to say "She could squeeze the poop out of a Buffalo coin."
I can squeeze the poopie out of a Buffalo coin....just like my mother before me!
I also am very paranoid about my financial security.
Paranoia has a place. A nice place sitting on the fluffy chair in my mind. Let's face it.....my husband owns & keeps me. I...rely on his income. I always have relied on others for survival. First my parents. Then my father. And now...my poor husband. Not only does he have the responsibility to keep me fed & clothed...but he has to keep 4 kids alive! And a dog!
Some days he rocks in a corner.
and I point & laugh...SUCKER!
Then I take his place in the corner & rock. Because relying on others...scares the poopie out of me.
Since I need a man to support me...I do my best to support him back. Like not spending all his money on German chocolate, making him tasty meals, popping out 4 of his kiddos & well....lots of other thing that are not legal to discus.
Heck...I even went out & got myself a job! A real job where I clock in & wear a uniform & attend meetings! My tiny pay check is handed over to pay off something or another.
That silly little pay check helps me feel....not so helpless.
Dang...I hate that feeling of being helpless. I think many women feel that way. Women "trapped" in their home raising their children...watching their husbands work at a job he hates, day in & day out....giving up his dream (being a toy tester...yeah......dreams...successfully slaughtered!) all because he adores & loves his family more then that dream....of...testing..... toys.
Then I think of all those other women, who just like me feel helpless.
Women who's husbands...just walk away.
Women who's husbands care more about their dreams then the love of their family & refuse to provide
Women's who's husbands slouch over...dead.
Women's who's husbands bodies get ravaged by disease or accident.
Women who never had the pleasure of their man loving them enough to marry them.
Women's who's husband struggle w/ addiction.
Women's who husbands torture & beat them.
As a woman......I feel...powerless sometimes. As an UNeducated woman I feel helpless.
What if my husband dies, leaves me, hates me, gets sick, get laid off, gets fired, gets jailed, gets drunk...on & on.
What if?
Damn you paranoia!
Oh well...I guess I will use my paranoia to get crack'n on Dave's debt beater-upper.....since I have nothing better to do then to rock in the
corner.
with my husband.
Being a toy tester would have been fun.
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2 comments:
Yep....he definitely loves you! I would think his dream job would be "baby holder.". I guess that is your job. Maybe you two should trade. Our men do have lots of pressure on them. We just have to love them and be thankful it isn't us.
I hear you! You know I've been working on the same thing. But you need to breathe because IF anything ever happened, you will be fine because you know how to work hard. You may not have book smarts, but you have common sense. But I think once you move out of the baby-rearing-every-day phase it's good to think about the most productive way to help your family. We need to cheer each other on and check in with each other. Being on a budget is easier when you have someone to support you besides your spouse.
Go Team!
We should totally go shopping and out to eat to celebrate our decision to be more financially responsible. Or maybe take a cross country road trip...
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